Vulnerability is a must
I've made it a point during the last nine months of the pandemic since I was furloughed and then terminated, to read more. I have read a fiction and non-fiction book almost every two weeks (depending on the length of the books of course). And, I wanted to support my local bookstore (although some books were purchased on Amazon). This week I'm reading Brene Brown's "Rising Strong." In the introduction she writes "vulnerability - the willingness to show up and be seen with no guarantee of outcome - is the only path to more love, belonging, and joy." I've learned this through these last nine months. I am showing up - with no guarantee of outcome. I've been working hard through screenwriting contests - something I've never dared to do in the past because I was afraid of the rejection or responses. However, it turns out my scripts have averaged 8.5/10 in reviews with really good constructive feedback. I've been vulnerable in starting this website so I can further push my work, reputation, and character to the world. I'm working on a new venture that is going to make me even more vulnerable but I'm excited to begin another chapter in my adventures.
Through it all I've discovered more love than I thought possible. Friends and family have really supported all of my creative endeavors these last nine months, even as I've faced rejections from job applications that were meant to support me with full-time employment. I believe the universe is really working on my favor. Brown continues, "While vulnerability is the birthplace of many of the fulfilling experiences we long for - love, belonging, joy, creativity, and trust, to name a few - the process of regaining our emotional footing in the midst of struggle is where our courage is tested and our values are forged." It's definitely been a test these last nine months. But through it all I'm learning that being vulnerable isn't a bad thing. After all, it's shown me who my true friends are, what my true talents are, that love is really all there is, and I've developed more courage than I ever thought possible. Onwards and upwards, all!